I can’t sleep. Suddenly so much on my mind, like this blog. I haven’t forgotten about it, I just struggle to write when I’m not in the right frame of mind. Go figure. Can’t sleep, tossing and turning, thinking of all the things that need doing and then I think “perfect time to blog!” It is what is is, I guess.
My husband is at camp, our son at college, our daughter made B honour roll and picked out her grad dress and I’m operating a small business from our home with two dogs by my side all day long. There’s a lot happening these days. A lot of changes happening quickly. Sooner than we’d like, both kids will be out on their own, then it’ll be just me, since Dad is always away at camp, working hard as he always has for us. It’s a lot to take in. Acceptance.
Surrender. I started meditating a few weeks ago now and heard that word during one of the meditations and it really resonated within me. Surrender. Go with the flow. Let life happen as it will. I guess that word ‘surrender’ applies at this moment since I’ve decided to write instead of tossing and turning. That’s a good word to remind myself that it’s ok to surrender and let life happen. Whatever will be will be and it’ll all work out in due time. We are, after all, just along for the ride.
As much as I struggle with our kids growing up, I trust. I remind myself that we’re taken care of by powers greater than ourselves and we’ve done the very best we could do as parents and that any wrongdoings in the past are lessons learned. We’ve grown and learned from our pasts and get to see all the great things the Creator planted before us come to fruition for our kids and us. As much as I get mom-crazy, I know it’s all going to work out. I surrender.
See? Writing is healing. I am tired now. I guess I had something to say even if it makes no sense at 1:30AM. It’ll be ok. Good morning.
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